Bitter & Sweet

Takemoto Yuuta's bike ride

2012-01-07T00:17:00.000+07:00

while watching 1n2d ep 65, kang hodong came across a boy who was riding a bike alone at night with tent and other stuff. they asked the boy where he was going, and he said he's going to the sea. they asked again why, and he said just because he wanted to see the sea. he is only 20 at that time, and he have to join the army soon and he need to discover himself first................

..............................
and by looking at his features. he wear shirts and pants with a towel around his neck. with his messy hair, he really, really reminds me of takemoto yuuta from honey and clover.
my favorite moments is where takemoto riding his bike with no destination. just go wherever the road takes him. that time he really needs to have a self-discovered.

just by thinking of it, my tears already fall....
...............T_T..................
i'm glad that i watched honey and clover. i watched it when i'm also having a hard time discovering myself (even now). not like any other anime or even movies and drama. it's realistic and can actually happen to somebody..

..................... i'm just out of words to describe how i'm feeling right now... i too really want to discover who i really am. and what i can do in the present...
i also want to just walk with nothing and and nowhere to go to see what's my limit and where the road take me.....................................

"When I started screaming, I finally figured

it out. I had always been afraid of not being

able to see my future. Of not knowing what I

want to do in my life. Of not knowing why I

don't know what I want to do. And of the days

that kept flowing by mercilessly, in spite

of that" - Yuuta Takemoto (Honey and Clover)

Eun Ji Won- 술김에 [Fuddled / Like Being Drunk / While Buzzed / Drunk]

2011-12-09T21:19:00.001+07:00

while watching old episode of 1박 2일, Eun choding's song came across in the background. and I've been listening to it again for 2 days nonstop -____-' hahahaha can't get this song outta my head!

when you look at the translation of the lyrics, it's kinda about a guy and a girl drank together and the guy accidentally confess his love and kissed her because he was drunk.. and apologize for what happen and hoping it doesn't hurt their friendship.. T_T

i like how jiwon sings because it feels really like he's telling the story.. and i always imagine how this story goes in real life.. i think this is better if there were a mv with the story.
accidentally confess while drunk... it made me feel wanna get drunk. no! i can't ahahaha i don't drink! but there is a curiosity in my head for drinking. i just wanna know what it feels like to get drunk. there a lot of people in Korea who drink while they have love problem [i watch to many k-drama ~_~]

aaaah~ it almost new year, and 1박 2일 almost done.. i don't want it to end this fast! i really hope there will be a BIG good-bye episode where all the 8 member have their final travel with mong, kim c, and hodong! i will be crying bucket of tears TT__TT

i will definitely miss jiwon's chodingness
사랑해 은지원!

1night 2days/1박 2일

2011-12-05T21:39:00.001+07:00

i finally had the courage to write about 1n2d/1박 2일.. one of korean variety shows i watched for the past 5 years. it's a show about 6 guys traveling all over korea to show viewers the beautiful korea and traveling in a fun way. i first accidentally watched the show on KBS world... at first i watched it because there's that loud big korean famous funny MC Kang hodong and MC mong was there too... and the more i saw it i get so attached to it. it's REALLY funny! haha!

what made me attached? so many things i found in this show. i know it sound weird to really fall in love with a show.. but many people who love to watch this show know i feel. not just they travel around the country that it's my number one destination in life, and not only the members i like, all the staff, the people, and the way they film the show ist's different.... there's Kang Hodong, a Korean Nation MC who is BIG and LOUD and the leader in the show, who like to exaggerated things. Kim C, a indie singer from Hot Potato, a skinny mustache guy who isn't funny, but i like him the way he is. Lee Su Geun, a funny Gagman who works hard at everything he does. Eun Jiwon, ex-idol (HAHA!) turn rapper who is a total choding (elementary kid) who is lazy in everything but still have fun with his hyungs and dongsaeng. MC mong, a really weird looking singer/rapper who is a rascal and the live of the party. magnae Lee Seung gi, a ballad prince, smart and good looking, but totaly a Hodang!
and there's Kim Jongmin, and now Uhm Tae woong... there's also ji sangryul, no hongchul, but i started watching when the longest six members are on the show.

they do bokbulbok, a curse-blessing-curse game to decide who will sleep outside and eat dinner. it's absolutely funny! i really can't think of anything to describe this game...

AH! i almost forgot their Lovable mascot ROCKER SANGGEUN!

and now what i really want to tell about this show is that this isn't just any variety show, i found this is a brotherhood. not only between the members, but the PD and the staff. this show has been there for me through my difficult times. when i drop out of school, had nothing to do, and don't know what to do. this show always there to made me laugh my ass out, and introduce the country someday i visit. and always made me didn't gave up my hopes and dream, show me that there's always somebody who helps you when you feel alone.
they care for each other just like any family, friends, and brothers do. that's what made this show i found different with other korean variety show. maybe because they travel together avery single week..
they don't just show the place where they go, buta they congratulate each other. like when su geun announce he is going to be a father, his wedding, ti'll he had a child, kang hodong wife gave birth, if one of the members release an album or songs they always listen to it together, and we always see kim c talked about his daughter, mong's girlfriends, jiwon's announce his wedding, and jongmin's return from the army, and many more.

and please don't forget the staff and crew who play the biggest role in the whole show it self. there's the ever famous Na PD who we always see the back of his body in early episode but now he became one of the members hahaha. there also the director, writer, and the members managers and coordinators. they not only play games with the members, but they also playing games against the staff. that also what made me love this show is that the really is a BIG family.

beside laugh, the show also gave me tears. they sometimes show their emotional side when they meet amazing people. there also tears in goodbyes. when they go somewhere and spend a night with the locals, work together and the next morning they had to go back, sometimes they cried like real people cried in goodbyes.

they also had problems. like first, when mong had a trouble with law, and then kim c leaving the show, now hodong also leaving the show. i know nothing is last forever. and you may think i'm weird talking about a show problem. but i see it that way. because this show also a part of my life.
i know that the show is coming to an end.. that's why i think i have to write something about it to release a heavy feeling in my heart.. they thaught me a lot. not only traveling. but living it self.

when mong first left. i sense a big disappointment on their faces. they move on with jongmin. and when kim c leaving the show and had a goodbye episode, it's really sad. it's like losing a friend. and they move on with just 5 members.. for about a year, they finally getting a new 6th member Uhm tae woong. and then in the middle of this year, kang hodong surprisingly announce his temporary retirement from the industry. it became a hard time for the show. and i feel a disappointment also. and they came up with ending the show. i when they announce the show is going to end sometime next year, i felt that that is the best thing the can do. because, i rather see the show end than see the show with all new members.

i've always been a silent reader when seeing the show fansub site 1N2D fansub. i always go there to find all the news about the show. reading the comments, and read the 1n2d related post...
thank you guys... :)

there is still more i wanted to write about the show, but the more i wanna write, the more i want to write, i tend to lose words. but overall, i really love this show, it's sad to think there will not be some 8 guys who travel around korean in a funny way. i will certainly miss them.. kang hodong's loud voice and his english nonsense... kim c kindness and his guitar playing, lee su geun's slapstick gag and his hardworking self, jiwon's chodingness and his weird self, mong overacting and his funny face, jongmin stupidness and ignorance, and i also get to know the actor uhm tae woong... there are many memorable episodes i loved, and many songs i liked because of this show. this show is really a brotherhood.

thank you for made me laugh, cry, and smiling for the past 5 years.. i will always remember this show.

i love you, oh thank you~

~Astrida Larasati

Long time no see~

2011-12-02T21:35:00.001+07:00

hello mellow the sun is yellow....

그것은 오랜만이야~ it's been a long time since i post something... aaaa~ my writing skill hasn't upgrade also..
and now it's almost new year.. i think i should wrap up this year by telling my so-so life..
i know i can't called it a boring life (even though i always though it that way). but i always thankful with what i had till now..

i don't really remember what happen in january. but last nye i spent with my lovely chingudeul.. and i think that is all -__-'
in february, it's my brother engagement with now my sister in law.. hehehe i feel february, march, and april is the busiest months.. because my parents and my family is busy preparing my brother's wedding.. and then my brother married in 10 april 2011. (a BIG party for my BIG family! yeah!) plus, we added 1 person to this BIG family...
and then..............................................

i don't really remember what happen then.. T_T i'm still unemployed. and just wandering around the house.. until we heard the news that my sister in law is pregnant~ wohooo~ oh yes.. and in mid june this year, my plan to hang out in bandung with my junior high school friends in balikpapan came true~ and i think that is the first time i go to another city alone and actually get approval from my parents! Allhamdulillah~ sesuatu! ahahahahahaha even though it was short but i had a blast!
and in august, it's IED~ this year's IED is a bit confusing.. there is a slight error on the date.. but overall, it's was a wonderful time as always...

and in october........ i turned 20 this year :) living in this world for 20 amazing year... happy, but the only thing that made me sad is not that i don't get many present.. but the fact that i did not accomplish anything this year that made neither my parents or myself proud.. *sigh* but i always pray and hope that i can be something worth.. AMIN...
being 20 but still feel like a kid.. ahahahaha..
a month later in november.... exactly 21 november 2011.. the first son, first grandson, first great grandson, and the first nephew in our family is born.... congrats to my big brother and my sister in-law!
Ganesha Alfathi Darma, is the cutest baby in the world.. and he's gonna be the king in this household ahahahaha...

and then it's december 2nd 2011... everything around changes, including me.. but i still crazy about korea.. i even read hangul.. haha :D
and my dream is still going to seoul.. and never give up hoping.. but i'm still lack in praying and working hard :P silly me... but i think i'm more relaxed than before.. i'm more about think positive now! yeah! fighting! ahahahaha
i really want to do this writing more often.. but i can't.. i still lack in telling something other that blabbering about myself T_T sorry... i like that the fact some people read this blog.. thank you to the people who leave comment on my chatbox...
감사함니다~
i hope i do better in writing something.. i'm more kind of a reader rather than a writer....

here's a song from LYN onnie that always made my day...

and i also hope i find the person who loves me for me... :)

2010-11-21T20:47:00.004+07:00

Shinta Almira Amadea,
Dita Fadhila Pane

서울에 가고싶은 사람들~
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Things

2010-11-10T23:29:00.002+07:00

long time no write~

it's still 10 November 2010.. barely 2 months away from 2011. like anyone else would say "time sure flies~"
and many things happen..
i turn 19, i retake the final test that i failed before, and i watch more and more great korean dramas (♥ jalgeum 4 ^^)

as time goes by, i always thinking "what i really want to do after this, after that?" and i really don't know that kind of stuff takes a long time to think about.. maybe because i'm always halfhearted at things.. ~_~''
i reunited with my junior highschool friends witch i consider one of the important people in my life. and i met a new friends through them...
things has been sweet around me lately. i found out that i'm not the only with problems, and that there's people who still care for me aside my family. and i'm really grateful of that

as for my fandom, it's been almost 4 good old years that i really like south Korean stuff. and it's still my dream that i could have an adventure in Seoul with my friends.
almost every people knew how to sing sorry sorry and nobody hahahahahaha...
for me who's already been in that situation feels weird seeing people on the verge of their fandomness while i'm already recover from that.. (maybe not)

another thing or somebody caught my heart just like how SJ caught me...
ugh!!! i really hate being like this..
it made me realize that i still didn't put myself together and that i still living in this fantasy world of mine..
it made me love, hate, something to look up to, and also, jealous...
i also realize that a lot of people got this decease too
it's called the "geol oh/moon jaeshin virus"
~_~''

aaah~ i'm all out of words. i'm still lack on this writing thing too~
i really extremely need a distraction!!!!!
but, the good things is
I'M HAPPY~

Peaceful~

2010-10-17T17:50:00.002+07:00

hihihi ^,^

~,~

2010-10-17T17:10:00.000+07:00

도와 줘요... 누군가.... 난 더 이상 붙잡아 둘 수 없다 ...
TT___TT

성균관 스캔들 :)

2010-10-17T11:11:00.005+07:00

here's another drama that yet make me go crazy all over again ~_~
it's called SUNGKYUNKWAN SCANDAL.

Based on the best seller novels The Lives of SungKyunKwan Confucian Scholars 1&2 <성균관 유생들의 나날 1&2> of Jung Eun Gweol, SungKyunKwan Scandal is a Chosun Dynasty youth story that deals with the love, friendship and passion of a quartet on SungKyunKwan college.

When her younger brother falls ill, Kim Yoon Hee enters the school in his place disguised as a boy in her desperation to find a way to support him, and becomes friends with Lee Sun Joon, a perfectionist who is also the brains of the gang, playboy Goo Yong Ha and the rebellious Moon Jae Shin.

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basically they are the F4 of the Jeoseon dinasty.. but with a girl in between hee-hee~
at first knowing that there's going to be a new drama and micky yoochun in it, it doesn't attract me at all (because i don't really into yoochun kee kee kee)

SO, I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH THIS DRAMA SOON WHEN I SAW THESE GUYS
hahahaha
esp, moon jae shin and goo yong ha who played by yoo ah in and song joong ki..
i don't even care about yoochun character hahahahaha sorry..

2010-09-26T00:35:00.001+07:00

until this time,
this second...

i still don't know what's holding me back...

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nowplaying : 바래진 기억에-박지윤

The Bizzare ending of a wonderful korean sitcom

2010-09-23T12:37:00.004+07:00

finally, jihoon is driving se kyeong to the airport in the heavy rain.
3 years later jung eum and junhyeok met again in spring and suddenly they talk about what happen 3 years ago with jihoon and se kyeong...

after confessing her feelings to jihoon all of this time se kyeong said, "I wish time would stop right now."
and then jihoon turn his head to se kyeong who is shedding tears..
while he was driving in the heavy raining free way.. and then that time really stop, black and white, no sound, no music, just the credits rolling down.

that time, i felt anger, and sad at the same time and a little regret watching the whole sitcom from episode 1 comes to my mind.. body aching, trouble sleeping... hahaha
maybe i'm overacting but i really felt that because i still don't understand why the producers made that kind of ending in a family sitcom...
at first, i really like how se kyeong, jung eum, jun hyeok, jihoon love story goes. their first met, then building towards care and love for each other.. and i really like to guess what they're going to do next.
but towards the end, when all of them had various problems around each other. i beginning to think that something is wrong..
and my thought is right ~_~ while i was watching, i wish that the end had a sad yet happy beginning for those four lead cast..
but i'm not the one who made the story, the PD did..

hahaha i really can't write my thoughts about this unpredictable ending anymore.. but i came to understand after reading other articles on the net about this bizzare sitcom ending.

High-kick Through the Roof Ending - An Eternal Moment by. jazzer @soompi

The Last Resort by. JN @Artexhibitions
etc.

my first time watching korean sitcom, and why it has to be end up like that !_! kinda pissed off but i had a lot of happy, laughing, and warm loving feeling all through the episodes. another yet beautiful korean entertaiment piece.

i thank the producer and team for making such great sitcom,
shin se kyeong, yoon si yoon, choi daniel, hwang jung eum, and the rest of the cast for portraying such great characters..
i really enjoy it ^^

and i imagine my own ending.. :D
see me in seoul someday chasing my own dreams :)
AMIEN!!!

High Kick through the roof

2010-09-22T22:56:00.003+07:00

it's my first time watching korean sitcom.. and i really enjoy it...
but,

the ending was shocking!!!
i hate it! really..
even the ever dramatic King of baking, kim tak goo ending was happy!!
wasn't sitcom supposed to be funny and romantic?!
but i cry at the ending..
it was really unpredictable.. but i had fun..
to see another beautiful story through korean drama...

i always drown deep when i watch korean love story....
it made me realize that you always can get what you want but not what you need.. and it made me felt the warm feeling of love..
even though i not close to any of that...
but i enjoy it..
to see such another realistic korean love story..
and i really hope that could happen to me :P
(but not the ending)

2010-09-09T01:05:00.001+07:00

everybody says that we are not alone in this world
but,
sometimes why i felt like i am...

monday, 23 august'10

2010-08-23T22:36:00.002+07:00

it's 10:37 here in my room and i can't close my eyes yet (as usual..)

and something just came up to my mind while a was listening to Seo in guk's Luv U...
that it's been years that i haven't fall in love with someone....
i even don't have someone to like/love... hmmm i miss being like that.
and it's been ages since i write something more than 1 paragraph hihihi. and these past month just 1 day before ramadan, i failed my first ever goal. T_T it made me sad, and angry at the same time.. i think i'll try again... till' i beat that goal!!!! ggrrrrr

i still haven't found a way yet.. maybe i'm not trying enough???
aaaaa~ just thinking of it makes me feel like i'm a coward..
like i said, my goals are still the same.
and having someone to love... someone beside my family and friends...
i really miss that.
i miss the feeling of having someone who cares for me.. and can make me laugh, and worries..
but i still haven't go out much hihihi

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh
i just want a good looking, kind, funny, family oriented boy!!!!!

it's that too much to ask???

and i wish my cats can play guitar like this

HAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

PPYONG~

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mood: sleepy ~_~
current song : 사랑 이야기 playlist

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2010-08-04T22:03:00.003+07:00

after all this time,
all my wishes still the same :)

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current song : Wonder girls-This time
mood : up & down

hi!

2010-06-10T22:23:00.002+07:00

it's been ages since i last wrote something in here hihihihi
i'm preparing for my final exam. so,

WISH ME LUCK!

nyummy~ stuff

2009-11-18T18:49:00.005+07:00

i found this that made me drool over my macbook screen
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

aaaaaa~ i could stop screaming seeing those pictures! beside heechul is my love ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
but seeing him on one of my favorite fashion magz!!!!
i could jump all night!!!
GORGEOUS!
those perfect face, perfect body~ nyumm~ ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

I MUST BUY THIS EDITION OF NYLON KOREA!!
아~ 너무 좋다!

Polyvore

2009-11-16T21:04:00.003+07:00

here's another good place for those who love fashion like i am hihi ;D

http://polyvore.com/

here is my first look @polyvore

hello november~

2009-11-02T20:30:00.002+07:00

it's november already?? uwaaaah time sure pass by quickly.. but i'm writing this @ 8pm??
why am i feeling that this past few weeks feels so slow *.*
and the most confusing problem i had now is choosing my pathway to modeling!!!
aaarrrggghhhh
i got caught up in 2 magazine!!!!

*sigh

oh God! please let me pass CGOTY!
AMEN!!!

2009-10-25T00:40:00.002+07:00

today,

i'm 18
:)

hope i'm getting better and better each second
and make everyone proud :))

2009-10-18T21:41:00.004+07:00

a very short time of clumsiness i spent this week with my goofy cousin~ even though it's only around my house but i had a great time^^

a girl who think love is the most important thing in her life right now even though she is only 15 hahaha
but i still love to listen to love stories :)
we took hundred of useless pictures

minus a week till i'm 18~
this almost 18 girl wishes to be a better person, go to collage and drive my own car
hahaha

thank you, goodnight ^^

boooooooooooooooRING!!!!!

2009-10-11T20:56:00.003+07:00

....bored
it's sunday, and i'm bored

while listening to my "힘내!" playlist on itunes
i boredly take picture of myself on photobooth hahaha

aaaah i felt sorry for this girl hihi
for having such a uninteresting life
sorry~
i'll make it up by praying a lot and work hard

........

oh yes! minus 14 ti'll i'm 18 :))
i hope a new age means more interesting life

Welcome October!!

2009-10-05T01:20:00.002+07:00

it's october, and it's my birthday month!!!
minus 20 days till the day my mom struggling to get me out of her tummy. and i'm thankful she's okay. haahahaha

i heard lot's of love story these past week. and they are all beautiful. even though there is one about break up. but i still jealous of those story ^^
even though right now i have no stories to tell on my own, but i have all those wonderful past stories...
and today's theme is...

"Let's just Forget about Past Lover"

sunday sunny day

2009-09-14T21:17:00.003+07:00

it's sunday, and i got nothing to do.
so, i called my cousin and went to her house..
and we end up having a really good little photoshoot hahaha

2009-09-14T19:52:00.004+07:00

i see
Love come,

i see
Love goes.

i see people..
searching for Love,
falling in Love,
confess Love,
accept Love,
struggle in Love

and some hated Love because it hurts
and i've seen people hurt because of Love

i see people
hanging to Love
change because and for Love
crying for Love

and smiling 'cause of Love
and happy 'cause they have Love

and i..
i'm wondering where's my
Love

Ramadhan 2009

2009-08-28T21:19:00.003+07:00

and it's that time again!
gak terasa bgt udah bulan puasa lagi! bener2 baru kayak kemaren deh lebaran taun lalu nya.
dan Allhamdulillah~ puasa taun ini gak ada halangan. tapi tetep, kerja keras biar dapet kerjaan! agak kesel deh belom ada casting yg masuk
(sigh)
aaaah gak boleh patah semangat!!!! hahahaha jelek bgt "patah semangat"
godaan yg taun ini yg bener2 hebat adalah
BAJU!
bukannya pake baju seksi!
my weakness is when i see a nice, good, fashionable clothes, i can't ressist and must buy it!

makanya jadi boros!

Ya ALLAH!
mengapa aku itu sangat lah boros akan uang cuman demi membeli baju! hehe
what the heck! namanya juga hobi yg gak bisa jauh!
hahahahahahahahaha
still, i need money to buy my mom's birthday gift, trus juga buat ke seoul! hahaha

Happy fasting everyone!

august.

2009-08-19T14:49:00.002+07:00

waaaaaaa. all this time i'm still working hard and praying a lot but nothing good come...
but still, i never give up :p

my dad just bought me the camera i've been wanting for a year, even though it's something that's makes you feel really happy. but not me haha.. i see this as a debt. 'cause i shouldn't had it without earning something hahahahahaha..

but still, all the picture came out perfect!

bentar lagi puasa, trus lebaran!!!! aaaaaaaah senangnya! semoga aku cpet dapet kerjaan dan berpenghasilan!
AMIN!!!!!

화이팅!!!!!!

♥♥

2009-07-22T18:45:00.001+07:00

girl rock - epik high

that weird boy 27th years living in this world

2009-07-10T22:01:00.002+07:00

with my sudden change in live, i almost forgot one of my reason working hard all these years...

김 희철♥

생일 축하합니다!!
이 멋진 하루에, 난 당신을 알고있다면 .. 날 몰라 기쁘다
왜냐하면 당신과 다른 12 명의 이유 난 열심히 내 꿈을 ...에 도달하기 위해 노력하고있어 나도 기뻐요
나는 당신을 사랑합니다
난 당신에게 감사
그리고 건강하게 :)

another step to reach with lots of sacrifice c:

2009-07-10T21:51:00.002+07:00

lately, my hard work paid off..
i'm glad, really glad :)
i finally go in these problems that i've waited. and i'm thankful and didn't want to waste this opportunity..
i found a good homeschool so that i can graduate high school. i found an agent that can help me find a job in modelling..
so i can earn my own money and save it and someday i can go to seoul c:

even though i have to work everything from bottom to the top. i just have to work hard and pray that this opportunity could make me a better person.. i really hope for that!
and not to forget i thanked all of the people who help me because i love them so much!
aaaah it sounds like an award speech hahahahahhaha

hwaiting!!!!

capeeeeeee :c

2009-06-25T18:46:00.002+07:00

capeeeee!
oh GOD!
i can't do everything on my own!!!! i need help! seriously! does everything have to be my job! i only have two hands, two legs, one mouth.. i cannot find everything on my own!!
AAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH! I REALLY WANT TO CRY!
why is this so hard! i tried to be patience but this is my limit! i cannot find homechooling, and modelling school on my own!!!!!!!!! what am i? a robot?!
i tried my best, my hardest! even though i doesn't have any connections at all!!!!
i even smile a lot!!
aaaaah!
i don't care! i still want to do it even if i cry doing it!
hahahhaha
but please GOD!
COULD ANYONE HELP ME!!!!!!!

Transformer 2 "revenge of the fallen"

2009-06-24T19:52:00.002+07:00

at last!
i watch the premier of the movie that i waited..
a perfect second sequel of the original transformers movie.
even though it's a last minute decision i made, and we got the ultimate front row seats in theater that made my head dizzy. but it was worth the life!

ahhh if i describe it very detail, my grammar could be ruin hahahaha

I LOVE TRANSFORMERS

a fool i've been

2009-06-18T22:40:00.001+07:00

a girl in Love is a Fool.. ahahaha
esp. me!

!@#$%^&(!@#$&

2009-06-14T01:03:00.002+07:00

ARRRRGGGGHHHHH I REALLY REALLY HATE MYSELF TONIGHT! FOR REAL!
STUPID! COWARD! LOSER! SELFISH! ME!

THAT STUPID ME HAS BLOCKING MY WAY TO ADMIT THAT I MISS HIM!
AAAH! I GOT NO ONE TO BLAME BUT MYSELF!
AND MAYBE TODAY IS THE ONLY CHANCE BUT I BLEW IT!

I MISS HIM! JUST BY LOOKING AT HIS FACE JUST FOR A SECOND AND DIDN'T DO ANYTHING SITTING THERE WISHING THAT HE HAVE THE GUTS TO GO FIRST.. EVEN JUST SAYING HELLO!
AND ONCE AGAIN, AND MAYBE A MIRACLE COULD HAPPEN.. I DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING JUST A SWEET AND WARM HELLO IS ENOUGH.
AND I JUST PAST RIGHT THROUGH HIM LIKE I'M IGNORING HIM BUT I WASN'T!!!
I'M JUST TOO SCARED TO GO FIRST! I'M AFRAID WHAT WULD HAPPEN IF I DID IT FIRST!

AND NOW THAT MAYBE THE ONLY CHANCE AND I BLEW IT BAD!!!!!
I FELT LIKE I COULD BROKE INTO PIECES BEING LIKE THIS COWARDLY!

AAAAAAH!!!!

damn~ AAARRRGGGHHHHH!

2009-06-07T22:26:00.003+07:00

for some reason i feel sadder and sadder everyday..
because i stop having beautiful memories since my junior high graduation..

and i begging God for me to have a really nice life somewhere nice (seoul maybe ^^)
aussie or everywhere... singapore, and of course S.korea!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!

then again, i can only scream my lungs out.. please... somebody, take me out of indonesia... i wanna try living abroad, try dorm life, suffering in others people country.. busy with university life.. when people around me don't want it but i want it bad!!! hang out with people i can call
MY FRIENDS :"(

I WANNA HAVE A LIFE!!!!!!!!

3 june 2009

2009-06-03T10:26:00.002+07:00

first post pake bahasa indonesia ^^
karena kebanyakan pke bahasa inggris, sekali kali pke bahasa ibu saja deh.. hehehe

udh bulan juni aja... tapi gue masih nggangur membosankan diri tiap hari. yg paling bikin makin bosen trus sedih... Grey ku udh gak adaaaa. setelah sakit beberapa bulan, akhirnya dia dipanggil Allah.. tapi daripada sakit2an terus mending dia sekalian gak ada aja.. janjinya sih gue gak bakal nangis. tapi ngeliat dia udh gak ada nyawa trus dibungkus kain bikin nangis T_T
dan selama beberapa hari itu, gue sakit bener paling menyakitkan. untungnya cmn 4 hari udh sembuh.

udh satu taun lebih gue gak sekolah, dan keinginan buat homeschool dan punya ijasah masih jadi no.1 di wishlist.. dan lebih pengennya lagi, kuliah di korea ngambil bahasanya trus hidup mandiri di negara lain.. untung2 nyari pengalaman..
tapi buat orang yg gak sekolah kayak gue gini gak mungkin deh ~_~ tapi gak ada salahnya kan berusaha..
tapi ada aja yg bikin rasanya pengen nangis karena kasian ama diri sendiri. cmn bisa ngayal doang.. banyak omong tapi gak satupun di kerjain....
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa berjuang sendiri, gak ada yg bener2 ngerti keadaan gue...
tapi, gue gak mau nyerah... cmn masalah waktu sama berusahaaaa

doain yaaaaa hwaiting!!!!!!!!
^^

Don't Laugh at My Romance ♥♥

2009-05-21T20:59:00.002+07:00

akhirnyaaaa~

hahaha i finally watch that weird movie i eager to watch..
even though i haven't finish watching
and this is the most absolutely boring but wonderful movie i ever watched!
and i fell in love with the ost long2 time ago when the trailer released...
hahaha i finally watch that weird movie i eager to watch..
even though i haven't finish watching
and this is the most absolutely boring but wonderful movie i ever watched!
and i fell in love with the ost long2 time ago when the trailer released...

i decided to put the song here~ ^^

LET ME FLY LIKE AN ANGEEEEL~

ㅠ.ㅠ

2009-05-17T21:18:00.002+07:00

just when i though that i finally hold back these meanless tears..

but the truth is i cannot hold it that long..

when i hear something i miss, see something i miss..

remember that my situation is awful..

my heart hurts, and i wanna cry badly..

but it wont come out..

...

and that hurts too..

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currently listening to : K.will - Dropping of Tears
mood : ㅠㅠ

melodica/pianika ♥

2009-05-12T20:16:00.002+07:00

i want one!!!!

i used to play it when i was in elementary school. and i think this is the best instrument i can play really well..
hahahahahaha

and the reason i want to play it again it's because someone named Yozoh!

i've been listening to her songs for about half years.. and i fell in love everytime i hear her playing the melodica/pianika.

my mom didn't want to buy me one because she thinks that i'm going to waste it like my violin

i really want to have something i'm good at.. and i want to play melodica/pianika really well... and it's only a matter of time till' my mom gives up and buy me one hehe or i have to save money to earn it..

here's some of my favorites

Yi Jung Story (지금 만나러 갑니다)

2009-05-03T19:40:00.005+07:00

cr: hoonfami@yt

I'm Going to Meet You Now

Within the people I simply brush by
I wanted to find more than anyone
The eyes welled up with tears, that voice
I only want to hold you
If I miss you and call out to you my dear
Wherever I may be, it is for you

I'm calling your name again
Because I'm like this
Because your are the one I love
I'm going to see you again
A love deeper than my tears

The lamp on the street where we
First spoke shines a light on my heart
Evething that catches my eyes,everything
Are memories that remind me of you
If I tell you that Ive gotten too really like you
Will you feel unsettled? I wonder

I'm calling your name again
Because I'm like this
Because you are the one I love
I'm going to see you again
A love deeper than my tears

With only you
No matter how many things
Even if I'm reborn
Will you feel insettled? I wonder

I love you more than anyone
Inside my heart,
Because you live in my heart
I'm going to meet you now
Bringing along the promise of forever
I'm so happy to be loving you

그 사람....

2009-04-15T20:57:00.002+07:00

Me.. The one who doesn't know what to do when she found someone she likes...

Me.. Always hides her feelings because always halfhearted at every little things...

Me.. Who lost at words when talking with someone she likes...

Me.. Who search every little things about someone she likes...

Me.. Who likes someone who is serious in his dream just like she is...

Me..
The girl who barely know him...

2009-04-15T20:28:00.000+07:00

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

i feel like screaming my lungs out! despite being lonely, and i've been losing social live with my friends and became a silent person.. i really thankful i still have my most adorable and supportive family. lately, i pray a lot.. even though my religious self is very lacking.. but i sincere in praying... because i have many goals to reach... i have all the love i needed here from my family.. my loveable siblings and cousins who i cherish forever and ever. without them i can't be me... and i'm so dumb that i didn't realize it often... and i really really thankful that i have them as my number 1 support. my mom and dad...

and mostly my late grandma....
just this afternoon.. i miss her soo much and i felt like crying... so many things we didn't talk about.. and i regret it.. i wanna share my feelings with her.. and just sit and talk all day.. and tell her how am i doing lately... what i've been trough... just everything...
and tell her how much i miss her..
i miss her when she used to call me who is living in balikpapan and tell me that she wants me to go home... and she miss me... and the times that i felt really sorry because i used to think that she's realy bossy.. and now i know why she's acting that way because she really care about us.. and i wanna tell her i'm sorry that i felt that way.. and i wanna hear her dragging me and my younger cousin to eat, and i wanna watch her taking care of her garden, and so much more..
i love and miss you uti..

and another thing, i made up my mind about save my dream and returning to school.. even though i'm not entering a normal school.. i just gonna take homeschooling. i think it's the only way for me to finish my education and graduate with good scores and made my parents proud... and then i can return to reaching my dreams... i've made that decision and it's final..

wish me luck everyone... ^^

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weather : cloudy
currently listening to : DBSK - Wish
mood : calm

the last of those fantasy dream stories

2009-04-12T22:08:00.003+07:00

finally,
after been waiting before it's even been release to public.. and watching it for almost 4 months not missing one episode,
i finish watching those heartwarming, beautiful, and always made my eyes filled with tears drama....
oh my.... i really get so emotional just watching some fantasy drama.. esp. korean one. i could cry seeing Geum Jandi hurt because of that weird but loveable Goo Junpyo...

and the 2 final episodes, it's the best of all.. i laugh, cry, and smile through the whole episode...

my favorite scene of Jihoo sunbae and jandi is where jandi goodbye walk with jihoo in Han River at night. where the biggest sprinkler i ever seen flowing from the brigde... i really really absolutely dying to see it for real!!!! (if it really exist)
too bad i couldn't find the picture of it..
my eyes grows big and teary seeing that scene.. i think jihoo is really "just" jandi's knight in shining armor... and the chemistry between them is something that just sweet..

seeing Ha Jaekyung leaving like that made me cry.. at first, i was totally against her way of trying to take junpyo away from jandi.. it's all just too much. but after seeing what she's done at the wedding.. i envy her.. and when she leave.. i feel the same way as she feel...
i really hate saperation..

and then that really chlice ending..
showing off the 4 years later promise..
all i can say is
THE GREATEST....

overall, this is the 2nd korean drama i fell in love and forever my favorite after the wonderful Princess hours/Goong.
and as always, i'm a k-pop addict.. so i know all of the OST..
PUHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

and i think this is not the last you see me getting crazy all over BOF..
because at first, i wanted to report all the episode.. but, i'm to busy watching it and i'm getting lazy with words...

can't close my eyes because i'm not okay...

2009-04-04T00:48:00.002+07:00

can't close my eyes because I'm not okay...

눈을 감고 있기 때문에 좋지 않아요 수 없다면 ...

what should i do?

어떻게해야 하나요?

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currently listening to: 어떡하요(what is prepared) - Jisun
weather: .....
mood: ......

힘내!

2009-04-02T09:23:00.001+07:00

090203

매일 아침 ...
그들에게 때로는 아침 일찍 일어나 집으로 곧장 고양이 그저 좋은 아침 .. 아침에 무엇을 할 수 있을까 ..
할 수 없다면, 난 그냥 앞뒤로 집안에, 하루 종일 컴퓨터 게임, TV 시청에 가서 ...
그리고 가끔은 그냥 우는 진짜 원인이 상황에서 벗어나고 싶어 ... 그리고 난 도움이 필요해 ...

일부 완벽한 세상?

Earth Hour : I ♥ EARTH!

2009-03-28T22:00:00.002+07:00

Saturday,
28 March 2009

"Together we can save our Earth
by switching off your lights for 1 hour
@ 9:30 PM"

here's the official site for earth hour
"click me"

Steps to Stop

2009-03-25T12:42:00.006+07:00

"I stop in my footsteps again
To cover my own eyes"

"When my heart aches I only laugh louder"

my eyes are turning red.. and and filled with tears that i always hold..
everytime i hear this song..
i always hold back my tears until my heads hurt..
my eyes become really red...
it hurts alot..
but i can only crying out loud inside...

can i slow things down on fandom and get on with my life???

2009-03-21T21:42:00.003+07:00

*sigh*

it seems like no matter how i tried.. i can't slow things down with this fandom over Korean thing...
i get more envy every time i see something i wanted to be in that world.. and thinking that i only see and not doing anything except for looking at those pictures and videos..

this month is my most favorite month so far...
but, also another boring months I've been in.. Super Junior's makes the most changes in their new album.. and keep coming with endless surprises that making us go crazy..
got all crazy and crazier every time i watch Boys Over Flower. those Korean F4 make all of us go crazy too! and the day of my sister birthday, 5 new kittens born.. that makes points of happiness in me go up...

and how i really want to cry seeing myself like this.. and how badly i want things to change for the better...
and how i wanted my dreams to come true...
i think i got much and much negative thought instead of positive..

i should change...

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weather: night..
currently listening to: Lyn-Love... it's all lies
mood: random

SJ's 3집 "SORRY SORRY"

2009-03-09T18:56:00.002+07:00

these guys made all of the ELF's go crazy in early march!!! and made my whole body shaking, and want to scream and jump around like a crazy monkey~

1st : the photo teaser

and after that..
i found that their official site has changed it's theme and layout..

here's the site
SJ official iple website

after waiting for about 6 months.. finally [010309] the pictures of their new album came out..
and i think they don't look like a boy band at all in the pictures..
they look like bunch of fashion magazine male models ahahahahahhaha
so, the title is "SORRY SORRY"
i think they apologize because making us wait for a very long time ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

2nd : The 30's Preview

cr: MusicRandomx@yt

OHHMAIGAAAAAD~
what else can i do but to SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT!!!
and after the pictures teaser came out, a few days later the 30's preview off their new album is out all over the world!!!!
for the song, i found it kinda' catchy ...
a very really new image for the guys.. need some time to adapt with these kind of looks and song.. and i think thy become more manlier
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

3rd: the full song

(it's already in my blog song hehe)

and....
A REALLY AWESOME SONG~
i really love these kind of dance track!!!!!
makes want to go crazy dancing ahahaha

and... the last thing to do is patiently wait for the MV, album, and the comeback performance...

let's bring number 3 to the top of all charts!!!

everyone already start walking, but why i'm still standing still?

2009-02-28T15:41:00.002+07:00

that's pretty much what today is about..
what i see and heard is how people is walking around busy for stuff..

but me... i'm still standing here wondering what to do or where to go...

i surely need to get a life *badly*

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weather: cloudy
currently listening to: Balloons & Champagne - Ephemera
mood: down~

Random

2009-02-25T20:52:00.002+07:00

maaf kalo terlalu berbicara tentang diri sendiri.. ^^

nothing ...
just a really really random feelings. and i really don't know how to describe it in words... if i could, it would be an ugly post ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ. since i still have absolutely nothing to do... but, finally i talk to my mother about rather i'm going to modeling school, or i should finish graduating highschool. and of course... like all typical mothers in the world "education is the most important thing" ~_~ but, i have a dream that i want to make it come true..
but, rather than let my biggest cowardly ego makes me bad. i have to do what my parents want from me first. i could get really serious in my goal after my parents see that i'm not a really lazy girl hehe.. and that's one of the most BIG problem i have to overcome.. huaaaa~ i'm already 17!! and 18 this year! and i'm still act like a dumb ol' kid! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!
i really really need to change badly.. but rather than than think that i have change, i think i'm glad that i know what my goal is.. it's just.. it takes a lot of courage to do it and i still in my 0% of reaching it...

another thing...
i think i got a really bad karma.. and i got it last year and it seem that it's an endless karma ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
i used to dislike and really make fun of asian boybands. but now... hahahhaa
i almost know all korean singers.. and only korean hehehehehehe
i could listening to korean song all day..
but i realize my dream because of this called boyband.. and i thank them by becoming their fans..
thank you oppa deul~ hehehehhe

and just now.. i still stuck in the house playing stupid games with my sister...
answer fast one of two option that related the most with you... (no thinking)
and i always got this question from my sister

mba dila: "Super Junior kesini apa ade ke korea?"

me: "AKU KE KOREA!"

huaaaaa~ mianhae oppa~

but i really really want to go to korea..
biarpun gatau disana kayak gmn.. tapi udah jatuh cinta duluan..

and you can call me freak, dork, geek.. anything.. say it! i don't care..
i just care what i like..
hehehheehhehehe

but with all that bad mood i had, there's always good mood.. my adorable cat is pregnant! horaaaaaaaaaay~

congratulation prince Boni and princess Mecin hihihihi
here's the family picture

huaaa~ still lot's of thing to say.. but i'm late for 1 night, 2 days~

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weather: warm..
currently listening to: Tak Perlu Keliling Dunia - Gita Gutawa
mood: random

슈주 on Bread

2009-02-15T19:52:00.002+07:00

wanna take a bite ??
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

_

2009-02-12T22:51:00.002+07:00

at last~

i'm the last on in the family who got sick with flu...
after my sister spread the virus to my mom and my brother.. and the last one who get that virus is me.. ~_~

i hate being sick~ especially cold.. i cannot breath normally...
even though i lie a lot at junior high about being sick so that i can skip school...
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

12.02.2009~
today is my grandfathers birthday.. wow... even today my body didn't feel very well cause of this cold.. but i'm mostly happy when my family member is having a birthday. cause my family can gather again! yeaaay~
and also, today is my cousin birthday too...
happy birthday mas echaaa~
to my dear kakung and mas echaa...
happy birthday.. and may you all be in health always.
and hope for the best in you all...

i loveeee you~

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weather : warm ^^
currently listening to : 데이트 (date) - Lyn
mood : Happy

huaaaachim!

2009-02-04T19:07:00.003+07:00

uwaaaaa~ soo cold!

makes me feel want to sneeze non-stop...

i think flu is coming.. T_T

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

it seems like i got a really bad virus of watching 꽃보다 남자 (Boys Over Flower)

oh~ letting go of love...

first love..

after love..

i really love this kind of love story...

even i have 0% in love T_T

while watching it alone, i smile a lot, laugh a lot, talking to myself a lot..
so.. i'm crazy enough~
XDD

hehehe i feel i little bad coz, i already planned to watch it with my cousin this weekend. but i couldn't help watching it right now

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

구 준 표!!!!

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Weather : after rain + wind = COLD! (*_*)
currently listening to : 꽃보다 남자 (Boys Over Flower) OST
Mood : n.o.r.m.a.l

1st day of 2nd month

2009-02-01T21:17:00.002+07:00

it's the 1st day of the 2nd month in the year 2009..
and my feeling stay the same...

january made me smile ^^ even though my goal isn't done in january
but, i feel a little proud of myself..

this month..
i still have to finish that goal and endless wish list ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
searched some good fashion or modeling school to go to..
make my parents proud..
and yesterday, me and my sister really want to open our own boutique..
but the only big problem is that we don't have NO money to open it haha
and i hope we will figure something out

SJ & E.LF = ONE LOVE
(suddenly i miss that thing that make me crazily happy)

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weather : rainy~
currently listening to : Couple - 손담비(Son Dambi)&J.Walk
Mood : weirdly happy^^ (?)

My best 13!

2009-01-28T20:32:00.003+07:00

The best 13 in my life

25 October 2006
(diambil di hari ke2 lebaran & my 15th birthday hehe)
jaman2 masih pada kucel.. gak peduli rambut, baju, muka.. yg penting photo ahahahahaha

01 October 2008
(diambil di hari lebaran)

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Family comes first..
and i always cherish this 13 forever...
^^

2009 wishlist part 1

2009-01-19T22:36:00.000+07:00

1. clothes (baju)
it's a must!!!!
baju itu harus! ahahahhaha
sometimes, i can't handle myself at buying clothes..
kalo lagi punya uang jajan lebih kadang2 suka sayang kalo dipake.. tapi, kalo udh liat baju bagus/lucu dan pas sama budget nya~ langsung disamber!
aaaah! bad habit!
gimana mau nabung kalo kayak gitu terus...
i'm addicted to clothes~
especially shorts~

ini hoodies yg bikin ngiler..

harga nya pun gak kalah bagusnya sama hoodies nya hehehe
yaaah kalo gak salah sekitar 600 ribuan.. kalo gak salah..
credits to genis onnie yg udh nagsih link toko online nya hehehe
here

2. shoes (sepatu)
i really really want o make a shoes collections ...
budget problem always makes me want to cry..
maybe i have to work on managing money myself hehe
i saw someone shoes collections pictures in flickr and fall into a deep ocean of envy hahaha

엄아~ beliin dooong

~end of part 1~

life couldn't get better (??)

2009-01-17T19:13:00.002+07:00

sama skali gak ada yg menarik in my life~
setiap hari melakukan hal yg itu2 aja..

jumping around the house for the past 1 year is fun??

absolutely not!!!!

kalo SJ bilang "life couldn't get better! yeaah!" dalam keadaan happy..
i'm the opposite of happy~

"when i will be posting something good and show a happy side of me for just 1 week"

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weather : sunny side-up
currently listening to : Mocca - It's over now
mood : bored (like always)

2009-01-12T18:47:00.003+07:00

...sometime i wonder why i cry

...i cry with just 1 sad song

...i even don't know why i cry when i'm alone

... maybe because i'm lonely (?)

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weather : rainy
current listening to : 걸음을 멈추고 - Super Junior K.R.Y
mood : ....

2009-01-09T18:34:00.004+07:00

the word for today.. haha

i'm in a really angry mood inside..
-i haven't get the call from the modelling school i enter!!!
-i really want belle epoque cd
-still stuck in this house~

aaaaaah~
how how can i get that belle epoque cd..
i don't want to download the songs ilegaly
i want the original cd~
everyone suggest that i should buy it online.. but, i don't have the money.. hehe

maybe i'm gonna try save money little by little..
and buy it at yesasia here

seeing this made me smile :)

masoooon aaah~ i want you~
grow up handsomely cute~
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

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weather: a bit rainy~
currently listening to : yozoh-하모 니카 소리 (hamu nikka sori)
mood: upside down (?)

waiting patiently for my dream and SJ's comeback~

Wheesung - 별이 지다 (fading star)

2009-01-06T21:21:00.003+07:00

oh my~ oh my~
i definitely fell in love with this song
maybe if there is the english version of this song it will be super~
for those who not into korean songs, the music of this song is beautiful.. just focus on that and the translation lyrics.. haha

Cheoniljjeumeul mannan nae yeojaneun nunbusige yeppeujyo
Akkapdaneun saenggage yeonyeineul gwonhaetgo
Geunyeoneun seonggonghaetjyo keun ingireul eodeotjyo

Baby baby baby baby geunyeoneun star
Ijeneun yumyeonghae naega judeon sarangboda keun sarang batjyo
Wae iri wae iri wae iri wae iri nae mameun teong!
Bieobeorin sseulmo eomneun sangja gateunji

Yojeum bujjeok jjajeungi neureotjyo manhi himdeun gabwayo
Naega mwonga doumi doeeoyaman hal tende
Nan hal su inneun ge eobtjyo yeollakdo swipji anchyo

Baby baby baby baby geunyeoneun star
Ijeneun yumyeonghae naega judeon sarangboda keun sarang batjyo
Wae iri wae iri wae iri wae iri nae nuneun kok!
Meonjie jjillin geotcheoreom nunmuri nalkka

Geujeo geunyeoreul haengbokhage haejugil baraetdeon sesangi
Boiji annneun nopeun byeogeul sewo uril gallanwatjyo
Jeomjeom nareul meolliharyeo haneun geunyeoreul
Neukkil ttaemada gaseum apayo
Oh, girl! Please come back my star

Baby baby baby baby ijeneun Stop!
Naman barabodeon yejeonui cham sarangseureon geunyeoneun eobtjyo
Naeiri naeiri naeiri naeiri ogi jeone
Mam sok seulpeum da chiugo da ijeullaeyo

Baby baby baby baby geunyeoneun
Sumgappeuge bappeun ilsange eoneusaenga naui saenggak ttawin haji annneundaneun geol neukkyeotjyo
Wae iri wae iri wae iri wae iri nae mameun
Chueogeul mot itgo jakkuman nal bwadallan deulliji anheul gidohae

thanks again coolsmurf for the video and the trans lyrics ^^

there's lee hyori in the vid..
and mostly i fell in love with wheesung songs and his voice (not too much with his looks hehe)

it's 2009~ another year to be greatful of

2009-01-05T19:08:00.004+07:00

oh my~
it's already 2009..
i guess i was wasting time so badly...

another new year holiday i spend it with my family again...
and spend it with my family this year makes me took a break from a korea holic for a week ^^

thanks for 2008:
-i know super junior and became fanatic in a flash~
-i give up the thing that my parents want..
-i became in love korea for a full year
-i meet a bunch of new friends (thanks ELF's)
-i know what my goal is~

even though not even my family all know what i want, but i'm gonna try the best i can to fulfill all my goal list next year..
and of course i need all the support in the world~
and to believe in myself in what i'm doing..

for 2009:
BE THE BETTER ME, AND MAKE MY PARENTS & EVERYONE PROUD~
and of course that we all be healthy forever..

all the bad and good things last year is gone forever, and just hope for the best this year..
AMIEN~

thank you, love you all~
고마어, 사랑해~

Happy New Year 2009 ^^

2009-01-03T22:19:00.002+07:00

Happy New Year 2009~

may this year will be another best year in our lives

and the year that our hopes and dream will come true

Happy Birthday ^^

2008-12-29T19:31:00.007+07:00

selamat ulang tahun~
happy birthday to you~
my lovely devitri~
happy birthday to you~

happy birthday my lovely best little sister

maaf fotonya ahahahha.. kado tuh buat kamu~
have a wonderful 14th these year..
and don't forget to pray alot..
panjang umur, tambah cantik, tambah pinter, lulus smp,
dan semoga semua semua impian kamu dikabulin
amiiin~

sat, 27.12.08 [watching MKMF]

2008-12-27T23:38:00.003+07:00

watching Mnet KM Music Festival at arirang tv..
really a pleasure for k-pop maniac like me ^^

ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

but a not excited enough coz my super idol SUPER JUNIOR isn't there...
but seeing Shinee & DBSK is just enough hihi

maybe, some people around me have a weird feeling with my fandom..
who cares! i like what i like..

ahhh~ really happy cause i finally watch it with sub..
and understand what they're saying..

DBSK really is an asia's star... i think these year is their year being the korean boyband senior. and stole the stage..

the shining SHINEE wins the best newcomer award!!!
yeaaaaa!

ah! the junior boyband singing their senior boyband is really wonderful!
you should see it!
here

wonder girls is as wonder as they are..
big bang + hyori = what a long and wonderful performance
and the others singers are great too ^^

and i really love seeing epik high winning again!!!!

[but really looking forward for suju's perform and winning next year]

aaah~ not sleepy yet, but i'll be when my head is above my pilllow hehe
i'll watch mkmf ti'll i ends~

tagged by shevatya

2008-12-26T00:50:00.003+07:00

1. Do you have secrets?
of course ^^
2. Would you fall in love with a girl/ boy younger than you?
maybe, if it's love..
3. Do you enjoy going to college?
don't know, i'm a bit down when talk about that ^^
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
go to korea, save it, give it to my parents
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
mm... i won't say no or yes
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone, or being loved by someone?
both is really a blessed things
7. List 5 recently watched movies
i don't go out much ^^
8. If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
move on~ kekeke
9. List 5 favourite TV shows.
these year : 1 NIGHT 2 DAYS!! nothing else
10.you have any regrets?
of course~
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
a woman who makes everyone around proud of her.. AMIN~
12. Who are the most important people to you?
family, all the people i know..
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
mmm.. i don't know~ hihiihi
14. Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
not both~
15.What is your favourite colour?
depends.. it changes alot.. ㅋㅋㅋ
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
maybe not, i have pride you know~
17. First five words that popped into your mind right now.
pray to be better everyday
18. What are the top five places on your "to-go"list?
home, korea (on winter), japan, singapore, malaysia
19. Name three things you would like to do, but would not be able to?
go to korea right now, buy new camera right now, go to korea tomorrow
20. 7 people I have tagged are
everyone~~~ hehehhe

Kim Jong Kook - Today More Than Yesterday

2008-12-25T10:36:00.002+07:00

it's another "i do" song that i like after super junior "marry u"
the "one man" is come back with a new, fresh, and more lovely album..
this is the single~
i fell in love with this song the first time i saw the music video
kyaaaaa~ it such a lovely song~

credits: wodersmurf@yt

the mv is just wonderful as the song...
love is all around..
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ ^^

here's the rom lyrics

(I Do) yeongwonhi dan hansaramman barabolsu innayo
(I Do) na jasinboda akkil su innayo
(I Do) geu nuga naege mureodo daedaphal su isseoyo
(I Do) naui sarang geudaejyo...

Yaksokhaji anheulkkeoyeyo
Haengyeo jamsirado heundeullilkkeoramyeon
Sijakhaji anhayo
Simjangdo da gochyeojul saramimyeon
Eojeboda oneuldeo manhi saranghamnida.
Apeudorok sojunghan saram cheoeumimnida.
Geudael mannaryeogo ireoke haengbokharyeogo
Manhido apanna bomnida.

Himdeun naldo seulpeohaeyo
Nunmul meotjiannneun geu apeumdo eonjenganeun kkeutnajyo
Kkeuchi eomneun geoseun uri sarangppun
Eojeboda oneul deo manhi saranghamnida.
Apeudorok sojunghan saram cheoeumimnida.
Geudael mannaryeogo ireoke haengbokharyeogo
Manhido apanna bomnida.

Dubeon dasineun hago sipji anhayo
Heeojineun il
Geudael mannagil wihan heeojim aniramyeon
Eonjekkajina

Beokchaoneun gaseumi teojilgeotman gataseo
Nae nunape geudaega kkumingeotman gataseo
Dallyeoga sumswineun geudaereul pume anayo
Maeumeul nonneun babomnida
Eojeboda oneuldeo manhi saranghamnida
Apeudorok sojunghan saram cheoeumimnida
Geudael mannaryeogo ireoke haengbokharyeogo
Manhido apanna bomnida.

Tuesday, 23 december 2008 21:30 pm [raining]

2008-12-23T21:05:00.006+07:00

weather : small rain w/out thunder
currently listening to yozoh new album playlist @ imeem

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ ^^

it's been raining lately..
i like it..
i love it..
a small rain fall down outside, it feel nice ^^

while listening to yozoh sweet voice makes the condition more sweet~

have a wonderful holiday everyone!

My Love / Humming urban stereo-Hawaiian Couple~

2008-12-19T20:43:00.006+07:00

내 사랑 (My Love)

it's a 2007 christmas movie, but i have it and watch it in mid 2008..
the movie is basicly about cute and sad love~ it will make you fall in love, and warm you in the winter..
(winter? there's no winter in indonesia)
and the OST just sooo cute. i really love this song.. it's by Humming Urban Stereo. an Electric k-pop group...

here's the MV of My Love OST
Hawaiian Couple By. Humming Urban Stereo

귀여워 귀여워 웃을때 귀여워
Kwiyowo kwiyowo utseulttae kwiyowo
Cute, cute, when you smile you're cute
너무 귀여워 나만의 연인 그대
Nomu kwiyowo naman-eui yeonin keudae
You are my very cute lover

멋있어 멋있어 너무 멋있어서
Moshisseo moshisseo nomu moshisseoseo
Awesome, awesome, so awesome

가슴이 콩닥콩닥 뛰는걸 어떡해
Gaseumi k'ongdak k'ongdak ddwineungeol eottokhae
What am I to do with this pounding heart

두려워 두려워 너의 그 두 눈빛
Turyeowo turyeowo neo-eui keu tu nunbit
Longing, longing for your gaze

빠져 버릴거 같아 요즘 수영배워
Ppajweo beorilgeo katta yojeum suyeongbaewo
Afraid I might sink in I'm learning how to swim these days

섹시해 섹시해 너의 그 쇄골뼈 키스해 주고 싶은 마음 이만큼
Sekshihae sekshihae neo-eui keu swaegolppyeo k'iseuhae jugo ship'eun maeum imank'eum
Sexy, sexy your collarbone's sexy, this is how much my heart wants to kiss you

둘만의 기념일 둘만의 냉장고
Tulman-eui kinyeomil tulman-eui naengjango
Our anniversary, our refrigerator

둘만의 사진들 둘만의 비밀거리
Tulman-eui sajindeul tulman-eui bimilgeori
Our pictures, our secrets

둘만의 속삭임 둘만의 와인잔
Tulman-eui soksagim tulman-eui wainjan
Our whispers, our wine glasses

둘만의 커플룩 둘만의 추억얘기
Tulman-eui k'eop'eulluk tulman-eui ch'ueokyaegi
Our couple ring, our reminisces

이런저런 시시콜콜 반짝반짝 길들여진
Ireonjeoran shishik'olk'ol banjjakbanjjak kildeuryeojin
This and that, inquisitively sparkling we become familiar with each other

이래저래 알퐁달퐁 샤방샤방 익숙해진
Iraejeorae alp'ongdalp'ong shabangshabang iksukhaejin This and that, splish splash, sparkling we become comfortable with each other
우릴 맞이했던 해변가에 옛 유행노랠 흥얼거려
Uril majihaetdeon haebyeonga-e yet yuhaengnoraeng heungeolgeoryeo
The beach that we met on, I'm humming an old famous song
우릴 축하했던 바람소리가 우릴 고조시켜
Uril chu'khahaetdeon paramsuriga uril kojoshig'yeo
The sound of the wind that congratulated us is withering us

긴장돼 긴장돼 너의 그 모습을 그을린 구릿피부 품에 안겨
Kinjangdwae kinjangdwae neo-eui keu moseubeul keu-eulllin kuritp'ilbu p'ume angyeo
Becoming tense, becoming tense, your muscles are becoming tense, I'm in your embrace
샤방해 샤방해 너의 그 목소리 컬러링으로 담고 싶은 이맘
Shabanghae shabanghae neo-eui keu mogsori k'eolleoringeuro damgo ship'eun imam
Bright, bright is the sound of your voice, my heart wants to fill you with colors

둘만의 기념일 둘만의 냉장고
Tulman-eui kinyeomil tulman-eui naengjango
Our anniversary, our refrigerator
둘만의 사진들 둘만의 비밀거리
Tulman-eui sajindeul tulman-eui bimilgeori
Our pictures, our secrets
둘만의 속삭임 둘만의 와인잔
Tulman-eui soksagim tulman-eui wainjan
Our whispers, our wine glasses

둘만의 커플룩 둘만의 추억얘기
Tulman-eui k'eop'eulluk tulman-eui ch'ueokyaegi
Our couple ring, our reminisces

이런저런 시시콜콜 반짝반짝 길들여진
Ireonjeoran shishik'olk'ol banjjakbanjjak kildeuryeojin
This and that, inquisitively sparkling we become familiar with each other

이래저래 알퐁달퐁 샤방샤방 익숙해진
Iraejeorae alp'ongdalp'ong shabangshabang iksukhaejin
This and that, splish splash, sparkling we become comfortable with each other
우릴 맞이했던 해변가에 옛 유행노랠 흥얼거려
Uril majihaetdeon haebyeonga-e yet yuhaengnoraeng heungeolgeoryeo
The beach that we met on, I'm humming an old famous song

우릴 축하했던 바람소리가 우릴 고조시켜
Uril chu'khahaetdeon paramsuriga uril kojoshig'yeo
The sound of the wind that congratulated us is withering us

달려갈게 나 기다려줘 너
Tallyeokalke na kidaryeojwo neo
I'll wait, come running to me

기다릴게 나 달려와줘 너
Kidarilke na tallyeowojwo no
I'll run to you, wait for me

Mid December

2008-12-16T12:43:00.003+07:00

my cousin's christmast tree
(i don't celebrate x-mas hehe)

current song : Shinee-Love's Way

whoaaa
it's mid december already..
after christmast past, and then new year~
time sure past like wind..

and congratulation to all the students who finish their exams week.. i hope you all do your best and have a good result~

holiday is coming, hope you have a wonderful holiday ^^

Ringo Juice

2008-12-14T20:40:00.001+07:00

apple juice~
ringo juice~
really really like apple juice
it's like a beer to be~ hehehehehehhe

Dork Sisters~

2008-12-14T11:05:00.000+07:00

ahahhaha
i just upload a video of me and my cousin lipsync to the song pump it by black eyed peas..
it's just a dork way we like to do~

hehe..
i haven't sing that song for lobg time, that we forgot the lyrics.. so it's not a perfect lipsync.

the story is..
in a rainy day, got nothing to do, just a handycam,and laptop in front of us~
me and my cousin didn't go out much like teenagers do. we prever to hang out at eachother house and goofing around...

Greetings!

2008-11-21T19:07:00.000+07:00

just starting my public blog kekekekekekekkek
from now.. let me share what i see with you..

thanks,
cidd